[18 Jul 2004|12:54am] Alright lets try this one more time. ADD THIS NAME!! ___cassiopeia NOW! 2   let it go

[13 Jul 2004|11:01pm] [ music | project 86 - one armed man (play on) ] I'm changing journals one last time. If I plan on changing it anymore, it will most likely be that i'm not using it anymore all together. So add me there ___cassiopeia 2   let it go

[13 Jul 2004|09:15pm] [ music | pennywise - fuck authority ] This is the kind of car I hope to get. Tomorrow I have to go to the dealership. I was unable to today. http://www.kia.com/newspectra/spectra-photos.php 2   let it go

[12 Jul 2004|10:29pm] [ music | acceptance - too late ] Tomorrow I'm going to the KIA dealership in town. Who knows, Friday I could have a brand new car. I found this to be amusing. LJ friend stats LJ Username LJ friend who likes you the most bete_x_noire LJ friend who wants to meet you candycrack LJ friend who has a crush on you xthe_aftermathx LJ friend who looks up to you itscalled4ever LJ friend who you should get to know better sanguineheart Percentage of LJ friends who actually read your entries - 33% This QuickKwiz by waywardpixie - Taken 98843 Times. </a> New - COOL Dating Tips and Romance Advice! 2   let it go

[11 Jul 2004|03:10pm] I have to find a car before August 14th. This should be fun... 1   let it go

[11 Jul 2004|12:00pm] >:O let it go

[10 Jul 2004|01:06am] I'm stoned. let it go

[09 Jul 2004|06:26pm] my brother should be here in about an hour. i'm supposed to go to the cherry fest with the best friend and two other of our friends. i have cat hair all over me. this sucks. bye oh yes, the sandles are still alive and kickin! i discovered something new. STAPLES WORK JUST AS GOOD AS DUCT TAPE! that.is.all let it go

[08 Jul 2004|08:13pm] [ music | escanaba firing line - awkward child ] Hm.. 2   let it go

[08 Jul 2004|04:58pm] [ music | arizing - synthetic song ] So i'm working on no sleep right now. Maybe about a total of 15 minutes. If I don't get sleep tomorrow i'll be fucked tomorrow. I don't need lectures from people, please I just don't need it anymore. Give me a damn break will you? nate I forgot to ask you this in the email i sent you, is it possiable for me to use the pages you have the lyrics written on? I need them for the site, get back to me and let me know. thanks let it go

[07 Jul 2004|11:50pm] [ music | Arizing - false semester / Dropset - something different ] Jim (zekethebassman) and I came up with a good idea for their bands website that i'm creating. So Derek, you better like it, or oh the fuck well. let it go

[07 Jul 2004|06:21pm] [ music | our lady peace - sorry ] I think i've lost the ability to fuckin' type. That goes to show how much i'm on the cpu anymore. Sad isn't it? Anyways, I don't really care to get online all that much anymore. But I don't really do a lot anymore. As of late, I have come to the conclusion, i'm quitting my piece of shit job at Target and searching for a new one. I'm still going to try to get a car through that company and hope to fucking god (and I don't do that often) that I can get a new and better job, fuck I don't care aslong as it's not there! I'm going to deal with my bank, and once that is delt with i'm closing my accounts and going elsewhere. Then, my mission to get the hell out of this place starts. I made a promise to my family that means a whole lot to me and I intend to carry on, so that is going to happen. I won't be moving back downstate for about a year. I'm going to graduate this year. I'm not leaving, which my mom worries about because everything right now isn't falling into the places that it should. So basically nothing is going right for me. Target seems to choose me to hassle so therefore they lose me as an employee, which I can tell you they don't seem to fucking care since they're hiring in new people who are taking hours that I desperatly need. You know, I am a teenager and I know that i'm going to be walked on for more years to come in my life, and I'm prepared but I refuse to be treated like shit from these people. So tomorrow i'm putting in my two weeks. This time, for real. Fuck em' I don't care. Friday my brother comes up, this should be interesting. I don't get to see my brother often, and honestly I don't think we're exactly on the same pages in our lives. Which is alright, nobody ever really is. But since everything's different we treat eachother very different. Or well, thats how I see it. I have to call him to see if I can get my $500 video camera back from him that he's had for almost a year now. I only had it for a couple of months before I let him borrow it. I am going to be downstate August 14th through the 21st. This should be really interesting. I havn't seen my dad in over a year, and we hardly talk as it is now. I feel as if he doesn't accept me anymore. I'm different, but honestly I can't really be THAT different. I'm human, I have feelings. I just tell things how I see them. If I don't like something I will let you know. I don't know, my dad and I have never really seen eye to eye. Except when it came to one thing, history. We are two big history losers. Sadly i'll admit it. I hope to see a few people when i'm downstate, that I havn't seen in so long. Jenni, Karey, Beth. Well i'll see beth, thats a given since we're going to warped tour together. I don't know, everything seems so different from up here than down there. And that is because it is. But, i'm not different. I don't fit in up here and i'll out right tell you that, and everyone I know up here will tell you that. Oh, and onto the reasons i'm quitting target, I figured I should tell you. Well I got into trouble twice in one fucking day, and for doing what? Well my friend Chris and his girlfriend Alison came in and I was working up at Guest Service, doing my job. I talked to them for a few, joked around WHILE STILL DOING THE MEANINGLESS FUCKING JOB and then they asked me where swimsuits were and I showed them. Well, one of the stupid LODs didn't like that (uh, why don't you point it out to other fuckin people? Why is it just me who gets shit said to them, and I know that they don't say it to others.) Then I get my mom knocking on rebeccas door this morning telling me that they saw me use my discount card for a friend. Okay this was my fault, the one time I didnt have them hand me the money to pay for it so I could get them a discount, I just swiped it. But i'm not the only one who does it, and do they say anything to anyone else? No, and how do I know? Because I've fucking asked. You know, i'm not as stupid as some think I am, so cut me some slack and give me a little credit. So therefore for almost a year i've delt with their bullshit, and was finally pushed to the edge. So i'm quitting. I've had it with this store. Hello job hunt, how are you!? I'm bored and i'm going to go figure some shit out while watching platoon. Bye. let it go

[06 Jul 2004|07:28am] Alright this whole not getting any more fucking sleep thing, isn't working for me. Insomnia and I don't agree. Going to work at 8am bites. Hello drugs that knock you out. 3   let it go

[05 Jul 2004|11:45pm] [ music | SLC Punk on the T.V. ] notice!; If you're going to warped in pontiac let me know and we can meet up if you want! Beth we need to figure out whats going on whos going to drive and what not. I'm already going to meet up with a girl I met through my 89x community. This should be fun! 5   let it go

[05 Jul 2004|07:51pm] I might buy a red 98 dodge neon highline. If I can get the loan for it. 2   let it go

[05 Jul 2004|05:26pm] I spent last night alone.. lovely huh? I feel so pathetic. Today i'm spending alone. Tomorrow I work from 8am till noon, and what am I doing after that? Spending the rest of the day alone, why? Because i've come to a sad conclusion, I had an illusion I had friends up here. But again, I don't. I'm going to go watch movies, and wasted my time. Bye. 1   let it go

[04 Jul 2004|06:54pm] [ music | The Verve - Bitter Sweet Symphony ] I find this disturbing My Best Friend is blademsu Our 1 common interests are: Who is your best friend? Username: Created by macoto Given the fact that hes my brother! Supposed to go to the bay tonight to watch the fireworks. Who knows, who cares, not I and not you. Oh yeah the brother comes up Friday night, leaves Sunday morning. Oh and I finally saw the fast and the furious (yeah, i'm behind i know) and to be quite truthful, I thought it was the most mind numbing movie I had ever seen. let it go

[03 Jul 2004|10:29am] Fuck you A decent human being could come pick me up FROM WORK BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME I CAN'T HAVE THE FUCKING CAR! But i'm glad to know you're going to waste 5 hours at a stupid air show and leave me to find a way home. Again; FUCK YOU 1   let it go

[02 Jul 2004|10:19pm] I havn't been able to sleep, so many things just rush through my head driving me insane. I can't stand it. Just so many things that I wish I could have/fix/remove won't go away. I'd ask for someone to make them go away, but why? They're my problems, i'm not going to dump that kind of shit onto you. I noticed Sunday is the Fourth of July. Another holiday in the US. But this time, it means something else to me than the fireworks and what else the town you live in has going on. It means hes fighting for my freedom.. Also Monday is the Fifth, making it the one month mark to two years. Two whole fucking years.. thats a long time, and a long time I wish I could have had. Theres a good possibility I could be getting a new car. Well, one of my own. I hope so. But i'll get into the discussion of that later. I'm tired and I need to take some pills to help me fall asleep. Word to the wise; don't get in a car with either rebecca or I when we're next to eachother. We were racing today, we were going a good 80 in a 45. Not a good idea. let it go

[01 Jul 2004|11:07am] I have three addictions; Writing letters back and forth Minute Maid Light Lemonade Lowfat yoplait strawberry banana yogurt. Yum As told to a friend; my idea of heaven is having modest mouse and our lady peace playing constantly in the backround with the verve giving them each an intermission with minute made light lemonade and low fat yoplait banana strawberry yogurt and just complete solitude from everyone that surrounds me Now off to send my letter ♥ Edit I feel alone.. And I am not cold, I am not heartless. I would like someone to talk too. A regular fucking conversation. I honestly really don't give that much of a damn about a lot of shit anymore. But don't call me cold, or heartless. let it go

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